Recently I couldn’t help but rethink and rethink a conversation that I’d had with a friend. She asked me how something had been going, and I said, “good.” Just good, and changed the subject.
Later, I think I kept rethinking it because I didn’t elaborate, and to be honest, I wasn’t sure if I had lied in saying it was good. I can not tell a lie, I mean morally I know its wrong, but what I mean is I’m actually terrible at lying, like not even a white lie. And so to think that I might have lied so simply was baffling to me.
The full truth was that the situation had actually been one the most difficult things I’d ever experienced or walked through, and in many ways am still walking through. In thinking through it though, I realized saying, “Good” actually wasn’t dishonest. So, my bad lying skills are in tact.
You’re thinking–I just said it was such a difficult thing, so how was saying, “Good” the truth then, right?
Well–it was good. Just not at first glance, on the surface. Looking closer, it was good for my faith, good to see that God was with me, and to see once again that He is everything I need.
I like to think of it like, I was in a situation where I couldn’t see the forest for the trees. But even though I couldn’t see the forest, I still knew it was there.
My forest is God’s goodness, God’s plan that is sure and that reminds me that the circumstances I’m in didn’t just somehow happen by chance. God is sure, trustworthy, faithful, good and with purpose.
This conversation happened way before the current situation we’re walking through right now with COVID and quarantines. But I felt it was still important to write, because it’s still true. It’s not by chance at all that we are where we are. Right now, many of us are walking through this pandemic and if we’re honest, if someone asked us how we’re doing, our response wouldn’t exactly be ushy-gushy.
I’m battling fear, dealing with sadness being separated from loved ones, worried about sickness in other loved ones, meanwhile, my kids are eating every ounce of food in our house, and still asking for a snack (boys ).
Some of the trees or circumstances around us right now can be pretty ominous looking. And if it wasn’t for the few flowers sprouting up, we could possibly forget where we are entirely. Sometimes if I’m honest, I do forget and have to remind myself.
I’m so thankful for those flowers or encouragements that pop up. Like hearing some good news, or talking with a friend, laughing with my family, maybe eating some chocolate and komboucha (dont judge me). But what I realized in my earlier circumstance, is that the only flower, or encouragement I actually need, I already have, I don’t have to wait for it to pop up. It’s the truth that God is with me.
God is with us. And sometimes that may be the only “flower” we have to remind us where we are. But that is really all we need. That’s all it takes to remember where we are, who we are, and Whose forest we’re in. Knowing the Lord we can have that confidence. We have the assurance of who He is, His faithfulness, His purpose. And He is going to be faithful to guide us through.
I’m not trying to say we need to go around saying this situation is so “good” but, God is good, and He is with us, and that my friend is always good.
Psalm 16 says vs 7-8,
“I will bless the Lord who guides me;
even at night my heart instructs me.
I know the Lord is always with me.
I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.”